Tuesday, September 1, 2015

I REMEMBER

I REMEMBER

I remember a five year old child, who knew nothing about the world outside The outside world which was full of discrimination,anger and hustle. The five year old who only knew the world of eating,play,sleeping and repeat. I REMEMBER when the five year old had all the uncle and antes, the home full of cattles and pets, the sun shines where the wind blow,the laughter followed by the encouraging smile,you never heard anything cry. I REMEMBER when the five year old was turning five,nobody knew that the day was the five year old womb escape day but the five year old REMEMBERED. And I REMEMBER when the five year old bought the sweet aid on that day because the five year old had only 5 cent to spend on that day. I REMEMBER the five year old.

I REMEMBER the eleven year old who knew nothing about the world outside but who knew so much about the family law, The needs to know and life of being together as one. The laws of family come first,the reason of taking care of the siblings and the life of sharing what you have with those who have you..

I THINK I REMEMBER the eleven year old trying to convince the siblings that the mother has only flue forgetting that for the moon and stars to shine  the sky has to turn black than being blue. That's when i remember the eleven year old crucifying the childhood action , to try and make the living beside depending on their grandmothers pension, I REMEMBER the eleven years old waking up ensuring that the siblings are ready to go to school, and the grand mother has everything she needs and the things that she will need when the eleven years old and siblings are in school.

I REMEMBER the eleven years old in class listening at the teacher but thinking about what are they going to eat when they arrive at home. I REMEMBER the eleven year old deciding to be patient because the late NELSON MANDELA said education is the key to success. The eleven years old did not understand the phrase but the eleven years old knew three words in this phrase education,key and success. These three words formed a formula to the eleven year old education + key = success. And that's what the eleven year old glued in the mind until what to remember was being the part of the eleven years old.

After five years the eleven years old was turning sixteen years. I REMEMBER the sixteen years old who knew everything that the five years old never knew, that is the world outside. The world which was full of discrimination,anger and hustle. I REMEMBER the sixteen year old having so much experience about the world that the five year old lived in and the eleven year was shaped in , which is the combination of the world of being independent and caring for others,until the vocation of providing the service to make someone rich for you to service, this is the world that the sixteen year old  had to prove that the past the present and the future work together ,this is the world of discrimination,anger and hustler REMEMBER.

I REMEMBER  in 1956 the march of almost 20 000 women to the Union Buildings in Pretoria that made the first National Women's Day to be celebrated on 9 August 1994.I REMEMBER the release of the first black president in 1994 that made the freedom day to be celebrated in 27 April. I REMEMBER the youth of the twenty first century being the most educated youth compared to the past decade that reminded me of the eleven year old when the eleven year old was in class listening to the teacher but thinking about what they going to eat when they  arrive at home...this made me to question myself what's the point of listening to something if you will not remember it. i remember the five year old ,i remember the eleven year old and i remember the sixteen year old. do you remember where you come from,do you remember what you have been thru do you remember ,do you remember because I REMEMBER. 

Friday, August 28, 2015

KENDRICK LAMAR LYRICS

[Kendrick Lamar:]
"I remember you was conflicted
Misusing your influence
Sometimes I did the same
Abusing my power, full of resentment
Resentment that turned into a deep depression
Found myself screaming in the hotel room
I didn't wanna self destruct
The evils of Lucy was all around me
So I went running for answers
Until I came home
But that didn't stop survivor's guilt
Going back and forth trying to convince myself the stripes I earned
Or maybe how A-1 my foundation was
But while my loved ones was fighting the continuous war back in the city, I was entering a new one
A war that was based on apartheid and discrimination
Made me wanna go back to the city and tell the homies what I learned
The word was respect
Just because you wore a different gang colour than mines
Doesn't mean I can't respect you as a black man
Forgetting all the pain and hurt we caused each other in these streets
If I respect you, we unify and stop the enemy from killing us
But I don't know, I'm no mortal man, maybe I'm just another nigga"

WORDS I WAKEUP BY WHEN AM ON MYOUTABOUT

PICTURE I RELATE TO

outTight

TOUCH ME IF YOU CAN

TOUCH ME IF YOU CAN

The power invested in me
The love, the songs the poems written by me
How I woke up and look in the mirror
Find that am better than me
You can't touch me
You can't resist my presence
Because you nothing compared to the king me

Am more than the multiple you
I give you the back of the hand
I assure you,you will never go through

I tell you what you like about me
And you confirm and add more about me
We can not talk about you
Not only because these nothing to say about you
I mean what can we say about you
Beside the fact that you are not so cool
Not vibrant
Not original
Not me

Bear in mind that we haven't spoke about marvelous me
We still dwelling on the malicious you

Touch me if you can
Am beyond the mind of Lucy
No meter what he plan about me
Me , my self and I
Mia sia mia

The bones and blood
Made the first alphabets of my name
Being the original,old,organs
02.266.12 penisecond
Instructions generates in mind

To mind the madness man modulate on me

Whose me beside the fact that am me ?
Whose better than me rather than me above me?
Whose there to compete with the fearless me?
Whose my competition?
Whose Goliath to this Davide?

Touch my shoe lace to see
I in slave courage and love
And sell them like humbleness
Sold to a 54 years old taima
Whose been in prison for 28 years
Look me like that and see whose who
Because am proud to be able to make medicine sick
Look me and tell me do you see the nigga or a kafer
Because am proud to be so mean that in my strongest I appear weak

Teach me manners I'll show you were they got me
Teach me life I'll show you how am living

I violate human until what am doing is right
Putting my picture in her room looking me like mister
While I treat her like a bite
If I ever go on one knee I assure you i'lI be tie(ing) my shoe lace
Because my panicles is to be BOM the ;
BIG
ORIGINAL
MAN
Touch me if you can
I may look like one of you
But am non of you
Try me if you want
Embrace me you can't I know
Being trapped in my own thoughts
Is the symbol that I fight until they say I fought
Even if it concerns my family or its not my fault
But I fight until I start fighting again

Can you please touch me if you can
Maybe that can heal your coward ness
You never want to do anything knew
Always go for the usually
Go get your life living under the hospitality of your parent
Swegging on top of the usually sweg

I dedicate these words to your heart
Not you,your heart

Because your body is the slave of this world
And your will be the world slave
This is not a poem
This is thee poem
Touch me if you can
Because I know you will not
Instant you will put your hand to me

Am not a mortal man
Neither a selfish fan of my self
I forever dream
Even if my dreams ends in my pillors
The goodness in me is to stay humble inside
And my greatness is being loud outside

Touch me if you can tolerate me
Because being the best at what I do
Made a lot of tears to flow through this
Dark dry chicks made by boyfriend material
Touch me if you can
Because I can't touch myself
Even though I can.

#MyOutAbout



Hope

A success be hide wall
A round of applause in advance
The resolution to heart transporting belief in mind
A team that wins ,before the match begins

A good characterised thoughts
Humanity of all dreams
Opportunity of road to achieve
A penalty that is refundable
An excellent drive

You never have it
If you look at people to have it for you
You never see it
Because is originated in your heart
You never do it
Because you feel it inside
find hope in you.

#MyOutAbout